A New Hope

I haven't mentioned the reason behind my blog title yet. I set this blog up as an overflow for my random musings on Twitter but as I've set up 'A Plus Musings' for that now I can be a bit more deep on here.

I set this up, and for that matter joined Twitter as a release for stuff rattling around in my head.
Just before New Year 2010 my ex-partner of four years split up with me, this was also only 3 weeks before my 30th birthday. Understandably 2010 was a pretty bad year for me, and I hoped this blog was the beginning of a better year for me, a new hope. As my followers on Twitter have probably realised by now, things are looking up for 2011.
I was out in Bournemouth to meet my friend Martin who I hadn't seen since before Christmas and after a drunken evening he decided to call it a night. I thought I'd have another drink before catching the bus home and walked into a quiet bar.
The tart I can be after a few shandies, decided to sit with the prettiest guy in the bar. We got chatting and as it had been a while since I'd been on the gay scene ended up going back to his flat. Next morning we were lying in bed talking and realised we had a lot in common but neither of us were looking for anything serious. We agreed to remain friends but not to mention the R word.
This lasted a couple of days, as we got to know each other better and I brought the subject up again. We have lived similar lives, we had the same interests, we even started to finish each others sentences, it made sense... but the L word was a definite no no...
Skip forward a few more days, we had now spent 5 days together and as we lay down to go to sleep he whispers "I know this is going to sound stupid, but I think I love you." As I held back a touch of eye leakage, I admitted I had held back from saying that for a couple of days because it's the kind of thing guaranteed to scare someone off but I agreed whole heartedly. The following day we had things to do and parted ways, I've never missed someone's company so much and after going back to see him the following day we have barely spent time apart.

So apart from gushing about how happy I am, what I'm trying to say is no matter how hard things are, even if it takes a year or five years to find it you never know when life will take an unexpected turn.
After only two weeks my life is turning around, and close friends are already noticing a change in me. This is the beginning of a New Hope and hopefully this will see the return of the Jedi in me*

*excuse the lame Star Wars puns xx